I hate to say this, but people just don't understand me.

Yes, Ive been directly attacked by some people saying that I neglected
my friends, never keep in touch la, this la, that la.

I've been going thru' so muchhhhhh trouble and problems.
Please spare me some air to breathe.


Things at home had completely changed.
My mum doesnt stay at home, in fact sometimes. Gone over to my aunt's house.
YES, MY MUM IS TERRIBLY SICK. MY MUM'S NOSE CANCER HAD SPREAD TO THE 3RD STAGE.
RECENTLY SPREAD TO THE EYE AND SWOLLEN.

NOW WHAT???????!!!!!!!????????......
What the hell I'm gonan do now........?
Those radiotherapy and radiology my mum went last month doesnt have any effect at all. Yes, fuck it. She is terribly weak now. The shop at tkc wont do any good for now.

Sighs..

goodbye.

More random pics on the
26th Nov.

I will edit it if i have the time.
Was very busy with attachment.

Spent the time today to repair my recorder device.

Somehow was okay but was quite loose at the top part.
Managed to record my own song,
"Its just a memory life has forgotten but its everything to me"

Original lyrics & singing by me.















Lyrics:

"the words get lost on that long journey from my heart to yours.
the feelings get caught in that gap between this time ...
and the time so long before.

i hold this one memory.. just before i sleep.
i wrap my thoughts around it as i begin to dream...
one brief moment, of you and me...

when everything was as good as it could ever be.
just after, the glow still breathing.. in our sweat.

i laid on you. my ear to your heart. listening to the sweet
rhythm as it lulled me to sleep.
i still remember every time there was finally a reason for the both of us.
there were endless moments..

i still remember... it holds me a consciousness, is leaving.
i still smile when i think of you.
it's just a memory, it was all to brief
it never return again.
but it's the only real love i have ever known.
it's all i have to hold...

it's just a memory life has just forgotten,
but it's everything to me.
its everything to me.. "

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I've uploaded the song to this file hosting site.
Clicky here:
Hayqal -its just a memory life has forgotten but its everything to me.mp3

Have been very busy lately.
Today I decided not to go out.

And,

I did lots of photo-editing,
clean-up of my friendster's html,
sort out all my pictures in my computer,
did my new blogskin[wooh!been a long time =D].

Yeah I was at the com from 11am in the morning till now.
The blogskin itself took me 2 hrs plus to find ideas etc.
But now i really liked my new skin. =]

Btw,
I wrote up a new song.
Wrote the lyrics myself and it all describes
about what life and love is all about.

The thing is I cant record it,
my microphone somehow is spoilt today =.=
The chords are easy though.
Title of song im naming it would be..
"It's just a memory life has forgotten, but it's everything to me."


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I promised I will record it very soon. =))
Hmm, here are some pics ive edited this morning,
thsoe in vivocity ones.
And also the recent project poster ones =DD
My group is surprised about it.
Me,Abg Wan and Rid came up with ideas. hee.

Vivo












Our group project posters







And not forgetting our last day for lifeskills module.
Though some are not around and they went
for earlier attachment.







TADAA! =D

2nd day of work of industrial attachment today.

1st thing i came at 8am,
waited in 'my' office fro 1 adn a half hours.
Did nothing.


One of the collague took me and taught me water sampling.
Its diffferent from what im taught in school.

The bottle is dam big and there are 12 points in total
in different ares in micro lab, gm lab, bioassay lab and
the others are chemical labs.


I was just merely folowing her and listened to her.
After that crash course on SOPs.
had a short interview with my 2nd supervisor.
I had a PROJECT to do! Dam. >.<

I was told to do testing of air
like air pressure(airborne particles count for grd a,b,c standards)
And make sure thee is no eutoxins in the air and contaminants must be
at minimum.

I was given a WHOEL CHUNK of files
DAM THICK.
Told to read all.
I was sleepy at that time.
I read halfway and halfway thru went to the computer
and one of the collegue coached me and explained some parts of it.


Its really dam stress for me.
I wanted to do work like experiments like
pour plates, chemical testing, calibration etc.
But im doing database checking and continuos projects.

Arrrghhhh =X
4 months i have to endure.

Earlier I said i ennjoyed my job scope.
But it changed me today.
Oh well,
I hope it gets better the next few days.


Hmm..
For pay wise..
I would like to get a PSP,
a new N73 nokia phone,
and lots of clothes to spent on =DD

And maybe changed my hairstyle or dye or something.
Btw my pay increase extra $50 for one month.
Coz they say meal allowance they did not put.
So yeah.. (:



kaysss then.
I will sleep early today maybe ard 10 plus.
Im so dam tired, extremely tired.
Oh yeah i forgot smth,
I had to complete and arrange all database documents
which are prnted and slips.
2002-current.
OMG, I have to complete it within 3 months.


Uhhhh,
Bye.

YAY!!!


I just got back from my industrial attachment at Schering Plough Ltd
located at Tuas.

There was transport at choa chu kang.
Just knew it today when they told me.

So I started work at 8 am sharp and ended ard 4.50pm~5pm.
The bus will come at 5.10 pm.
And i reached back home at 6pm.
WOOT, was quite fast.


So, no more waking up too early from tomorrow onwards. =DD



I wore a dam formal suit.
Long sleeve, pants and black shoes.
Was so damn paisehhh in the mrt.

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Anyways, when i reached the place this morning,
I checked in at the security office.
Was at the A.P.I Plant doign admin work 1st like
signing of application form, bank form etc.

After that i attended a couse of GMP
(Good Manufacturing Practices)
Was a crash course on me but heh i learnt it in school already!
Yeah, I passed the test.

So, hmm i can add that to my resume. =DDDDD


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Soon after that, had lunch at the canteen at API plant.
After that, the supervisor took me to the Biotech Facility Plant,
which I had to take a bus from there.

Was a 10 mins ride.
They have a tablet, API and biotech facilities al interconnected.
So we had to take a company transport there.

Along the way, the view is dammm nice.
Can see the beautiful sea and very windy. (:



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When Ive reached the BioTech Facility,
was welcomed by 2 supervisors.
They were veryyyy dammm friendly.


I was very lucky to be chosen at this placement. ^^
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During the working hours,
first i was taught about reading acrobat reader files from the schering plough website.
and doing database.
Was touring ard the facility.
They had a labs with grd a,b ,c grading,
with diff air pressure.

Our aim in this facility is to do chemical testing and sterilise
a product called uhh.. (sry forgot the name)
that can heal hepatitis C.
Was uber cool laaa. =D



I also was taught how to incubate moulds, bacteria in different agar plates.
And check air particles in the air using this ultra uber cool machine.



Hehks.
Enjoyed today vey much.
I even can surf the net when im free to do anything.
I had my own computer there, own office.
=))


Okays then,
time to eat and rest a lil.


Latersssss. (:

Sembawang Secondary School

Was amazed when i saw this picture from my friend's.
I could describe lots of things here.

I missed parades i paticipated,
The procision drill squad(NCC),
Those bloopers that happened on the 4th storey,

The day i dropped the flag while having a speech day rehearsal,

and having SEOW torture,

Playing catching in sec 2 at lvl 3 lol,

Playing soccer here in the rain (sec 4),

Wow, lots of memories. ..


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Same would go for collegeast.
When i graduate, yeah more memories
would always be reminisced. always..

Time passes away quickly.
Ive almost completed my studies in collegeast.

Industrial attachment would be tomorrow.
Tomorrow....
@ Schering Plough located at Tuas.


Meaning I have to wake up at 5am everyday, weekdays.
Leave house at 6am.
Be at Boon Lay Mrt at 7am.
Take bus to the company in ard 40-50 mins.
8am, i have to reach.

Sighs.
I hope i can make it thru' this atatchment.
Just that, i reallyyyyy hopeeee i dont get horrible tasks
that are needed to be done.
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Its been 1 yr 5 months plus
in my entire education at collegeast.
Yeah, like what ive said earlier,
time really goes on very fast.


All I could say is,
these period of time since i entered collegeast,
Ive learnt a lot, a lot..

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From sorrows and laughters,
From sadness and joy,
I've continued to carry on and move on.


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Earlier in the morning today,
I was flipping thru pictures and pictures.
The thing is, whenever a picture that flicked my mind,
I would always looked at the date,
and think hard what actually happened on that particular day.


Same for smses and messages in msn that are
stored in my handphone and this computer.


Ive kept all smses since 5 October 2005 till now.
I will look at them whenever something similar happened
today on that day.

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I would go thru this 4 months of attachment.
And hope to get a place there after my NS.
Or maybe start my own business maybe? =)

Ive always been interested in setting up my own business.
Its a own time own target thing.
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Hmm, but maybe I'll stay my career in life sciences field.
Maybe, things will change.









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Kayss,
laterssss...

Okay like what ive told yesterday,
i'll post more pictures. =DD

Here are them during the last day
of our CDP/TPS modules and the vivocity pics.

-With Ms Wong during the last day of CDP/TPS modules. (:















-@ last level of vivocity, swimming pool area










































-Thinking of?














-At BK



































-Aiya, guitar blocking the way.














-Okay, take again lol














-Ape je.





























-Perfect shot. Rid's relative took it from the top last floor.














-Behind us would be the link bridge to Sentosa (:

-At the dock of the cruise ship at Vivocity














-Resting place.















-We are nearly of same height! Eh?

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-I'm taller now! =DDDDDDDD LOLS.
























-EMO. Like real onlyy =X

That's all folks.
Im still waiting for my raya pics,
the one with my ex-secondary school frens =X




Btw, today i was supposed to have QC&A Practical test.
I was waiting from 8am till 1pm
and it cancelled at the veryyyyyyy last minute.
Sian-ded.
Heh.
Needa have a haircut soon.


Laterrrrrrrrssss

Its Sunday today.
Its been a real long time since i post a proper entry.

Many things stycked up my mind.
I'll just go about writing more about of it.

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3th of November &
4th of November 2006

Went out for jalan raye with my coursemates friends.
Was a fun and memorable one.
Yeah, this would proabably the last memorable outing maybe.

Hmm, since all of us live in different parts of S'pore,
we rented a van, which Haidir drove the van. :)

Was very tiring in the end.
Hmm lets just say pictures say a thousand words.
=DD

-Us at Ain's house














-Myself doing 'maaf zahir&batin' to my lecturer, Mr Rashid














-Outside lecturer mdm ruhaidah's house balcony.














-Oustide Haidir's house














-The girls with mdm ruhaidah @ lecturer mdm ruhaidah's house too















-At my house, candid














-At Rizwan's house (sry bout the lighting)














-At Hidah's house















-At the carpark outside Hanifah's house with the van! =D














-In the van (: and yeh, its air-conditioned and comfortable!















Wokay, thats all for the 2 days.
If i have the time today, ill edit more pics and
post them up here =DD


5th November
OK now for the 3rd day with my ex-secondary friends.
But too bad, i cudnt get the pics.
Only got one from my friends' friendster
but, will try to get those pics soon nd post them up here again.(:

Here's the only one lol.

-At Khaty's house















Okays, thats all for hari raya pixies.
Will try and upload more after i edit some of them today.



Hmmm, yesterday
I and some of my coursemates and lecturers went to Dover Hospice Care.
Me and Wan went and performed there with guitars.
We performed the song 'Stand by me' &
'Its all about you'

The others have to actually sing.
Haha, the singing part of stand by me was actually funny
but nevertheless its still quite okay. =)

We actually gave flowers plus hand made hearts to give the patients.
It was a sad-to-sad situation when a few of the patients actually cried
and were very touched bu our performance etc.

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Soon after that, its time to go home
Was like ard 12.30 pm.

Rid decided to go vivocity @ harboufront.
I was with Rid,Hidah,Wan and rid's relative(sry forgot your name lol.)

It was my first time there.
The place was ZOMG extremely big.
We were lost a few times but yeah it was okay after that
since Rid went there before, lol.

We took lotsa pics as usual.
So many candids here and there expecially
at the top of vivocity
There's actually a mini swimming pool.

At first we went to Bk first to eat.
Ate till full and as usual Hidah ordered more than a meal.
Hehks.

Went around vivocity, took pics
and Hidah bought 2 shirts from Marks&Spencer with the recent
Mr and Miss AHS vouchers she won.

And yehhh.
Me, Hidah and Wan wore black.
Was perspiring and dam hot.
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Soon after that, we went home
Home sweet home. XD


Will upload more pics this monday
after i transfer the pics to my bro's laptop.
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Phew, thats a long post.


Btw, my mum just got back on thursday.
She was feeling better but still.............
treatments are still going to carry on....

Oh well,
I hope its gonna be fine.
Thanks peeps for the comments,
appreciate it. =))


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Next week on the 27th of November
I will have to go for my attachment,
located at Schering Plough Pte Ltd @..
TUAS!!!!!!!!!!!
Omg, i hope the journey its not that very long.

And my attachment will be 4 months exact.
After that, 2 weeks of presentation in school.
Then GRADUATE!

Seems good but..
it will really leave me very good memories,
when i leave school.
I love you all peeps.